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Post by Joelle on May 11, 2019 19:30:39 GMT -8
(OOC: Thank goodness you can edit topic titles here! Here's the link Celine's friend from her spinal chat sent:
It is probably about 9 in the morning, maybe a bit later. Last evening, Aurora had wanted to go to the hospital too, worried about possible asthma after suffering a panic attack, her second in a week after warning new people about her mom Dawn's murder, which most of the neighbors who have been here awhile likely remember. Celine hates that Aurora feels she has to do that, but understands that those things are a little easier if they come from a direct source instead of a passerby, or in the case of her peers, better from her than an unknown adult. Now, in front of her and Theo's computer, Celine's stomach feels like it has dropped to the floor. Her breathing is a little unsteady from shock. Lucy, a friend from her spinal injury chat group, had e-mailed the link to Celine when she revealed she had T5. Is this going to be worth it? Her pregnant brain has made her forget how much Theo makes teaching dance when he isn't at church. And one of those bikes costs $15,000! Then again, their children currently with them had come from adoption.That costs money, too.
But if she asks the congregation to possibly donate money toward an FES bike and a treadmill, she will probably feel guilty, and maybe even a little hurt. As many negative comments about her disability as Celine has weathered throughout her life, she feels it isn't right to ask people to fix her., besides the fact that it might sound like she hasn't accepted her body the way it is now, which would be at least mostly untrue. And being pregnant. what kind of exercises- besides the obvious Kegels and her upper body training- are good for her right now anyway? The aquatherapy mentioned here, maybe, but what else? If she looks up the answer to that, she's afraid she might be disappointed again, because she wants to do this. Especially equally to resume her figure skating-if only for fun- though her skates don't fit anymore and she'd have to buy a new pair- and to someday dance- even only a handful of times- with Theo. Eleven... she still had that pair of skates, which Nell had been able to find and give her when they met...and what makes it both better and worse at the same time is that Celine had won the overall judges' vote in that competition.
Something to remember, to hold onto, to be able to believe that it really happened. How many of those experiences- good ones- has she had throughout her life? But another of those good experiences would be dancing with Theo. She thinks has probably told her often enough how people tried to set him up with other girls... girls who could be a professional dance partner. She used to feel a combination of wistful, hopeful, but obvious guilt. Celine knows he loves her, but she also knows he's made some sacrifices for her. A lot of them. Sometimes she still feels she doesn't deserve to be so deliriously happy as she still is at having her love for him returned- in only the best way . But sometimes all the food she cooks-in her standing frame, cooking is easier- laundry she does, or beds she...well, tries... to make, she feels sometimes that he has given up so much more for her than she ever has for him. For now, Celine likely won't worry about it, as being pregnant seems to have made her extra careful, and not just because of the miscarriages. She is losing a bit of her mobility- despite doing every exercise the midwife or certain websites recommended to stop that. She had expected a little mobility to go- it is more common in those who have spinal injuries when the women are pregnant- but still. Maybe, just maybe, if she had an FES bike, and/or knew a neighbor with a treadmill she could use, she might be able to regain it, And dance with Theo afterwards. Celine can hear Finn in the kitchen doing,,, something. Maybe she should go check on what that is. Her eyes, however, refuse to stray from the computer screen in her and Theo's bedroom. Maybe it's too much. Maybe they might not have the money right now. Or maybe they would eventually have it, but too many other things would be needed. Maybe, with a baby coming soon, they never will. And although she aches sometimes for her broken dreams, Celine knows it's best to focus on the one that is finally coming true, The baby, a dream broken twice before. But babies, however deep her longing has been for them, are expensive, And so is that bike. She tries to turn off a sudden bubbling stream of hope in her chest. For Celine to sacrifice one dream for another hurts so much, and maybe, in a sense,is painfully unfair. But who ever said life was fair anyway? Besides, Theo has done so much for Celine. Even if in a sense, what she would be sacrificing is their shared dream and not only hers alone, maybe it's too much, and if she feels uncomfortable, maybe the pain involved will be enough to truly make it count as a sacrifice to God.
It would hurt unbearably- maybe for both of us, in a way- to give up this particular dream, just the way the losses of the babies have been excruciatingly painful. It's been my dream for so long to figure skate again as well. Giving that up is letting thirteen year old Celine down. But whatever you want, Lord, just like when Ben asked us to pray about taking over BGCC. Whatever you want. Always.
Celine then wheels into the kitchen then to check on Finn as she suddenly hears a strange gurgling noise. Finn must be working on his school science project, hopefully with Theo watching. Fizz..glug...splat! (OOC: Probably minus the spark, Finn is trying to do this, but it ends up pretty much like the video instead of working the way it should.)
Celine will clean as much as she can, minus the floor of course, though the table is low enough for her to do, but she can't do anything about the goop on the ceiling. That last splat was some of it hitting the table.
"Finn Robert Noble!" So many emotions hit her at once, and she isn't really as mad as she sounds. In fact, she's kind of grateful she has something to distract herself. Thinking of a suitable way to even clean this keeps her occupied for a good five minutes! Paper towels will be a start.
Finn senses she's not too mad. Which, considering what he's done, seems odd, even though he didn't quite mean to do it. He thinks for a minute.
"It's your spine chat...isn't it? That thing you've been on a lot lately?"
The air is suddenly a little too warm. "You're like your grandfather, even though you're adopted, you know that?" He shrugs. "God tells me stuff. You can't stop that." After a moment of silence, Celine nods. "No, sometimes you can't. You have to be open to it, though, which you are.That's good." She smiles proudly. "Never lose that, okay? Now, let's clean this up. You do the floor, please." A companionable silence ensues as mother and son try to clean up what they can of the mess. Celine isn't exactly content- now she knows her bad days, when she has them, probably aren't as much of a secret from her children as she thought. Celine has tried to explain as much about her T5 spinal injury to the kids as their brains can logically understand at this point, but she knows some things are still confusing to them. But at least thinking about this means she's not thinking about how much it would hurt to sacrifice this dream.
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Post by Joelle on May 17, 2019 5:36:17 GMT -8
(OOC: Title edit!) *bump*
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 21, 2019 17:33:52 GMT -8
Theo wonders how long they have been at this, because he has been watching them for a full two minutes without them realizing he is standing in the doorway. He has seen similar disasters at his own house, such as when Teague and Titus decided to make smoothies. They learned quickly to turn the blender off before removing the lid to push down the fruit.
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Post by Joelle on May 21, 2019 19:46:07 GMT -8
Celine finally feels Theo watching and smiles. "Good morning. How much did you hear?" At least she hasn't cried yet. Though she is pregnant, she honestly tries not to cry unless the occasion would call for it, not wanting Finn and Verity and any future children she may have besides the new baby to remember her as a moody, weepy grouch. But it's like she told Theo the night the baby moved for the first time. The good things always break her, because waiting for so long can hurt your heart and make you lose hope.
And this will definitely break her. But later.
Finn has the presence of mind to be embarrassed. "Sorry about the ceiling, Daddy. Or, well, everything, but neither of us can get that." Celine laughs. "Yeah, we'll remember this day forever, that's for sure." And after she shows him that link she got this morning, they'll probably remember it even more.
"I'm kinda scared. I mean, she wasn't even mad," Finn continues, his voice a little softer and sounding worried. "Not as mad as she probably should be. She sounded relieved.Like she was almost glad to clean. Is that weird?" Finn is desperate and looks at his father helplessly.
Celine senses that maybe Finn would like a word alone with his father before she reveals what's bothering her. She could probably count on one hand the times the kids have seen her this confused. Parents, at least to their kids, probably shouldn't be allowed to be confused.
"Go ahead, Finn. Tell your dad what you told me. Because you were right. I'm going to check on Verity. Is she still asleep? I'll be back in a few minutes."
Celine wheels herself out of the kitchen. Finn is relieved to be alone.
"It wasn't me! It was God! She didn't say anything. It's something about the spinal chat she's on sometimes. He didn't tell me what, though." Even though he has his mother's assurance that everything is fine- with God telling him things- he still feels desperate. Not guilty exactly, just confused and desperate to make things better.
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 22, 2019 0:03:33 GMT -8
"Let me show you a trick," Theo says to his wife and son. He opens the garage, grabs the rag mop, wets it in the sink, and mops the walls and ceiling. "Sometimes you just have to laugh," he winks at Finn, but adds, "and be more careful next time."
Theo watches his wife leave the room. When the room is reasonably clean he leads his son outside to the porch, where they sit.
"I think we are going to be finding this stuff for months. What is this stuff anyway? And why isn't it outside?"
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 22, 2019 0:29:26 GMT -8
(OOC: It occurs to me that because I am Theo and you are Christian, you are essentially asking ME for romantic advice. BWAHAHA!!!🤣 Joke's on you!😉
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Post by Joelle on May 22, 2019 8:26:04 GMT -8
(OOC: LOL! Yup!)
"It's kind of like that stuff Mommy puts on her face. It's the same color, but it doesn't get sticky and clog when it dries. Water, dirt, vinegar...I forget all the stuff, but it's there on Google. And... well... the last times I tried it outside it didn't...do anything. You know, like Uncle Joaquin says," he says, although when Joaquin uses this expression he's referring to the fact that Oceana's biological mom, his high school girlfriend, died of a brain aneurysm during labor, his first wife, Scarlett, died in the Japanese earthquake, and his second wife, Sam, is nowhere to be seen.
Finn does a pretty good job of repeating the expression though. "Crazy is doing the same thing over and over and over again and expecting different results!" He knows it sounds a little snarky, but he can't help it, as he's too worried about his mom.
"But Mommy isn't too mad. She sounded glad to have something else to do. And that's scarier to me than if she would have yelled at me and sent me to my room with no TV for a year! I know it's something about her spinal injury chat... but I thought that was one of the good uses of the Internet we talked about. To make you feel like there are people you can talk to about stuff you have and they have, even if nobody else where you live has your issues. And I just said what God told me. Then she told me I was like Grandpa Ben and said never to lose my willingness to hear from God. Then she smiled and told me to clean the floor. And then you walked in. That's it. Am I in trouble? I mean...not about the volcano." His voice is trembling and he needs a hug.
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 22, 2019 9:56:46 GMT -8
Theo wraps an arms around his son and chuckles. "There is another phrase I prefer in this case. Practice makes perfect and try, try again. I admire you for trying something new when the first option didn't work. You were persistent. However, let's keep explosions to a minimum.
"And what do you mean Mommy would yell at you and ground you from tv for a year! Why would you say something like that? Mommy wouldn't do that!"
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Post by Joelle on May 22, 2019 10:43:16 GMT -8
"She wouldn't. I know that. But I meant... if she did, at least I wouldn't be so confused as to why. Now I explode a volcano I have to do for school all over the kitchen up to the ceiling and she's smiling and laughing about it? Something is weird. She wasn't having a bad day yesterday. What if someone said something mean this morning?" He does worry about that. "I know Mommy has... different problems than most people I know. But if someone said something mean, they're talking about my mommy! That makes me mad! How would you feel if somebody said something mean to Grandma Robin?"
(OOC: Oh, yeah! What do you think Verity is doing? Is she one of those kids who lives in her bed on Saturdays? My brother was. LOL!)
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 22, 2019 13:50:12 GMT -8
The sliding door scoots open and Theo braces himself for what he knows is coming. Verify throws herself over her dad's left shoulder and dives headfirst into his lap. Her bunny slipper clad feet face in the air as she giggles. Theo flips her over and she rolls into his lap with her head looking up at her brother. "Good morning!"
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Post by Joelle on May 22, 2019 14:52:48 GMT -8
"Good morning!" And despite his worry for his mom, Finn giggles. "How did you do that, Verity? Maybe you should be like those tumblers in the Olympics!"
Everyone will likely hear the somewhat muffled noise of the printer making its weird mechanical noises as Celine prints off the info in the link her friend Lucy sent her. It's the quickest way to fix everything, though she fears breaking down in front of the kids. They are adopted, and she knows she has told them she is too, But the abandonment, and Proverbs 13:12, and what they have to do with why she always cries- pregnant or not- at things that would likely make someone else happy...will they understand that? Regardless, she knows it likely isn't fair to keep them out of the loop. Besides, this affects all of them. Even if she does get to walk again- and that's her hope, but still only a goal- Celine will regardless need the wheelchair for days when she's in pain or tired. So the walking would never be able to be every day, barring a miracle even more huge than medical science can help to achieve. And God, while He is definitely that huge, may not plan that for her life. She needs to be prepared for whatever comes. but if Celine doesn't tell the kids she could potentially walk again, their eyes may very well pop out of their heads if and when she can do so.
When the printer is finished, Celine gathers the papers into the correct order, staples them, and tries to think about how she will get outside with the kids, and finally decides to go out the front door where there is a ramp, even if she gets her wheels stuck in the grass on the way to the porch itself. Despite herself, a few tears have made their way down her cheeks and her nose is stuffy, but who knows? This isn't just her dream, in the sense that she knows Theo would probably love it if they could dance together. He might possibly shed a few tears, too. She puts the papers in her lap and makes her way out the front door. $15,000 for an FES bike. Treadmill training. Aquatherapy. So much money, just on a chance! With a baby coming, and her wanting more children if God should will it. Why does the timing always have to be so ironic? Nell calling on her senior trip. This baby being conceived on the date she and Theo met. Now this. Celine doesn't know why it has to be both so ironic in timing and so expensive instead of one or the other. But supposing it works, it will be worth every penny.
As she manages to make her way into the yard...
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 22, 2019 17:53:50 GMT -8
The three on the porch startle when the gate opens. Theo asks, "why didn't you use the back door?" He wishes he knew why she was making such strange choices lately.
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Post by Joelle on May 22, 2019 18:22:51 GMT -8
"I needed time to compose myself. Because maybe you won't even believe this, Theo." Her voice sounds like she's still in shock. Maybe she is. Celine hands the papers to Theo. "I mean... it's just like everything else in my life. The timing is ironic. Especially as we're having another baby and that will be expensive. And this could also be hugely expensive. Fifteen-thousand for the bike alone. But if it works... I could skate again. We could dance together...just like when we got engaged and you told me you could have married a professional partner of yours. I've thought about it ever since... for both of us. And now for the kids... for the really important things. The chair would still be necessary, but not every day anymore. I'd have braces, so my skates and dance shoes would be giant. And I could only skate or dance when I'm not tired or in pain or sick. But... this bike. Aquatherapy. Treadmill training...." Celine's voice is trembling. But for once she wants the kids to know what they can. The explanation has been for Theo. She will try to find the words about the process for the kids later. But the most important thing, this last sentence, everyone here will be able to understand.She adjusts her chair slightly so she's facing all three of them as much as possible.
"I just found out I might walk and skate and dance again."
Finn is slightly skeptical. "Are you sure no one said anything bad? When you didn't get mad about the volcano I was worried..."
A look of recognition crosses her face. "Not this time. And I reported that troll to a moderator ages ago. They were banned."
Finn giggles, mostly because she uses the word troll. "Good."
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 23, 2019 14:24:41 GMT -8
Theo looks over the printed sheets. His eyes light up the more he reads. "This would be great! What's this about a troll?"
"Branch and Poppy?" Verity asks.
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Post by Joelle on May 23, 2019 15:33:44 GMT -8
Celine chuckles. "No. Not Branch and Poppy, Verity. Those are the cute and nice trolls. A troll on the Internet is a person who starts arguments or upsets people and keeps them distracted from the things they really want to make happen by having a board or chat room in the first place. They also could be different than what they say they are like when they introduce themselves and join groups to say mean things, though they may play nice for the first few weeks. The person who was mean in this group I'm in was... maybe doing all of it." She turns to Theo for a minute. "There's a little more, though, about these things on that link, which I think is why I'm weepy right now. See... supposing that we couldn't afford it... what if we needed help?" She rearranges her chair again to face all three of them. "Finn and Verity, do you remember a talk we had about accepting what God may let happen? That even though there are things that happen when we live in a broken world- like Mommy's accident- it doesn't mean God liked it when they happened, but He might have a reason for letting it happen anyway?" Celine clears her throat, hoping she can make it through the rest without crying. "If this is what God wants at all, then if we need help to raise money, I don't feel comfortable asking for it. That might make people think I'm not okay with what God let happen. Especially at church, because some people seem to think you should be okay with it, because He's God. And while there are hard days- days when I think of the things I miss being able to do- to say that I'm not okay with what God let happen is bending the truth. I've gotten used to it and manage in my body as well as I can. In my mind...well... we all have days when we can't handle things in our mind. But we make it, don't we?" Celine smiles despite the obvious pain in her eyes. What she is just now saying is the worst part of all of this, but she smiles to show that she knows they do make it through things.
"But then again, if we do have to ask for help... maybe God is trying to teach me a lesson about pride here or something. Regardless of if we need help raising money or not... isn't this wonderful, and at least worth thinking and praying about, anyway? I mean, if I do it... it's my agape, because I'd be doing it for you and the kids, too. And if I can't do it for some reason... I grieve, but then those dreams are let go and given back to God as my sacrifice... sometimes, Theo, with both you and God, I feel like you've both given up so much more for me than I ever have for you. And Finn and Verity, you know how badly Mommy makes beds." She's laughing, even as the tears are coming despite her attempts to hold them back.
"Yeah, all lumpy! But especially yours and Daddy's 'cause it's higher up!" Finn giggles again. Celine manages a choked half-laugh. "It's true."
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 23, 2019 19:03:28 GMT -8
All Verity knows of computers are ABC Mouse and Starfall, so she does not quite understand what her mom means. Theo, however, is very impressed with his wife's explanation.
"Have you checked to see if any facilities nearby have these amenities?"
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Post by Joelle on May 23, 2019 19:49:20 GMT -8
(OOC: A gym, with a gymnastics area and treadmills and swimming, etc. would be nice. Isn't one of your guys a swim coach? Also, about the bike being $15,000 that's actually old info but SHE may not know that yet. In 2019, they sell them, at least on Ebay, for $1,800 brand new. Way more manageable. Here is what one looks like: www.ebay.com/i/292850497538?chn=ps ) "The treadmills and aquatherapy, sure. But the bike would be important in it too, and...I don't know about that. It's got electrodes. Unless... they do have more of those online shopping sites now. It might be a little strange getting it online, because anything for a wheelchair-bound person usually has to be fitted. That's why we have this wheelchair now that I've grown out of my other one. But still... it's worth a search or two." She tries not to think of how scared she will probably be on a treadmill. The fact that it moves like a conveyor belt has always made Celine wonder how able-bodied people keep their balance on one, let alone someone like her.
"That reminds me, did I just say treadmill? I have no idea how I would keep my balance. Those things move while you use them! But I guess that's why the whole program has to be approved by a doctor. I guess, while I'm pregnant, we could start with aquatherapy and move on from there."
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 23, 2019 21:33:35 GMT -8
Theo nods. "This is great, hon. I wonder if we should pursue it through professionals, though. Shouldn't you go to an office for this kind of thing?"
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Post by Joelle on May 23, 2019 22:12:49 GMT -8
"I don't know exactly. but you're right about there being a doctor. But with that said, Christopher Reeve had to go all the way to St. Louis to start his program. It makes me nervous- I mean, knowing that this still seems to be a rare type of program. I don't know- it just hit me- that we might have to- take an extended vacation or something to even learn these things. And I'm pregnant right now so who knows if some of this stuff with the electrodes is good for me right now anyway? See? Proverbs 13: 12." Celine sighs. "Why does everything good like this always hurt me inside, too, and come with ironic timing? It's Nell calling on the senior trip all over again."
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 23, 2019 23:59:53 GMT -8
(OOC: Proverbs 23:12 says Apply your heart to instruction and your ear to words of knowledge. I don't see how that applies)
Moments like this cause Theo to question how to respond. He wants to be a spiritual leader to his family, and also be sensitive to their needs. "This looks like a possibility. There is no reason to be discouraged. We need more information. There is lots of room for hope.
"At the same time, maybe we should be looking to 1 Timothy 6:6-7. 'But godliness with contentment is great gain, for we brought nothing into the world, and we cannot take anything out of the world.'"
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Post by Joelle on May 24, 2019 5:38:16 GMT -8
(OOC: Typo! Proverbs 13:12! Also the part about the volcano literally just hit me, but I find it true in my own life, though maybe not to the extent she does. I just wanted her to have something to distract herself!)
Celine nods. "I know you're right, but it's like the hope and discouragement are together, because you're still hoping, but you have to wait, so you still don't know which feeling is the most appropriate to have. It's that, and... maybe also too much thinking about either way it could go. You want things to go one way or the other because feeling both is happy and sad at the same time and they kind of overtake you together. And then you can't handle how overwhelmed you are and it's... oh goodness... even that's weird today, that it would happen now! Finn's volcano! Your feelings make you laugh and cry and then..."
Finn giggles, even though he knows this is a serious conversation. "My volcano for school finally worked!" he says to Verity. "The stuff inside it went everywhere, even on the ceiling!"
"And you always need someone else to clean the ceiling," Celine points out.
Finn nods. "Unless you're like Goliath. He was 9 feet tall!" Finn remembers.
"But none of us are- not most of us bodily or probably anyone in our minds. Someone always has to help us sort through the emotions, it seems, whether it's God or God using someone else to hug us, knowing that we need it. God created us and he knows we need hugs," Celine says in case the kids still understand what she's saying."He does use the people we know to point to Him. sometimes." Again, Celine thinks of Pastor Deschaine's part in their wedding sermon about marriage pointing to Christ and the Church. "That's why knowing people is important. Especially knowing other believers in Jesus," she explains to the kids.
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 24, 2019 14:00:52 GMT -8
Theo is impressed with how much his wife has grown these last five years. After losing Anastasia they had had a very different conversation about other Christians.
"I think this is what the Bible means in Proverbs when it says "Be Still and Know that I am God. " We all get discouraged sometimes, but that's not the right reaction. The right reaction is to do our best and let God do the rest. "
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Post by Joelle on May 24, 2019 18:09:51 GMT -8
(OOC: By the way, there's a special sort of gym run by doctors in LA. It sounds like all you do is learn to do stuff and keep in contact with them, which is totally doable in the modern age. www.nextstepfitness.org/laabout ) "It's hard to not get discouraged when the timing may mean I have to wait longer. And part of me says, now that I'm expecting, I need to focus on that. But...I don't want this just for us. I want it for the kids, too, and it makes me feel like... this is for all the marbles, you know? The fact that this isn't just about me- that I never once thought it would be just about me- means that I feel like I might be letting you and the kids down too, if I don't get to do it, or if it doesn't work," she says with a shaky sigh. "It's not just about thirteen year old Celine's crushed dreams. It's not. It means more now that I have you and the kids to think of." She pauses. "Obviously, my Hebrew isn't great compared to my Greek. But I did read this somewhere- that the original translation that we in English call Be Still actually means Let Go. And- even when you trust- or think you do- letting go can be scary. If God asks me to do it, I know I should. But it's still scary- because disappointment on this level hurts so much more." Celine puts her hand on her belly, enjoying the sudden movement of the life inside her, but also briefly thinking of their two angel babies. She knows Theo will probably understand she's thinking of the pain of disappointment on high levels. She had felt the same way with this baby as she does now, until Robin had reminded her that everyone's children are here on loan. "And yet, our lives are not our own. Such a paradox here, isn't there? Does God just- expect us to automatically trust? To automatically stop thinking of the times when we've been disappointed or caused pain?"
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 24, 2019 23:08:23 GMT -8
"It's not automatic. Romans 12:2 says 'Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.' Paul said, 'For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ'. When our mind goes to things that don't please God, we have to train it back to good things," Theo explains, quoting from memory.
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Post by Joelle on May 25, 2019 6:31:31 GMT -8
She nods. "I think I understand that. But so much loss- how much it all hurts, and how much pain even good memories can bring sometimes...I thought about that competition I won at 11 just now...." Gulping, Celine tries to come up with her next words. "All that pain makes it hard to train your mind. It's not an easy walk, anyway- though Jesus never said it would be. I've been thinking of that lately, too. How troubles were guaranteed by Him. And how your dreams don't always come true in this life, and how much you grieve when they don't. I think that's why the good things break me, besides the Proverbs 13:12, though at least I'm grateful in a way that this time I let myself break in front of the kids also." Celine knows the kids may not understand quite all of this right now, and that's okay, but they do need to see that emotions aren't things that have to be hidden for fear of others' opinions about them. Theo was right when he said that when they talked about it after losing the second baby.
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 25, 2019 23:07:40 GMT -8
Theo kisses her cheek.
"It's okay to cry," Verity parrots.
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Post by Joelle on May 26, 2019 5:30:30 GMT -8
Celine sniffs, trying to breathe through her stuffy nose. Though being pregnant often causes a permanent case of the sniffles for 9 months, Celine seems to be having the opposite problem today. Her allergies aren't as bad as they had found out Aurora's are, but today she might need something to unclog her nose.
(OOC: though I have no idea what she could use. As someone with a pregnant best friend currently, it's kind of overwhelming how many medications you can't take and etc. and keeping track of alternatives, and that part goes for both of us. Essential oils like eucalyptus or cinnamon or clove can work though, and that's because I use them myself, though you have to warm them in the microwave and do it repeatedly about 5 times a day, and Neti Pots can work, too, to rinse the pollen and dust from your sinuses.)
"Thanks. I needed that," Celine whispers to Theo. "Thank you, Verity. Then it must also be okay for you kids to know parents aren't always sure about anything either, any more than kids are. We get confused, too."
Finn nods seriously. "That's a being human thing, though right? Not being sure?" He knows not every one of his friends' parents is probably as open about their uncertainty as his own parents try to be.
Celine nods. "Yes, it is a human thing. And now... what does everyone think of this? It might be hard work- including the fact that I already need help with physical things, and there are days I may not be able to do it, still, because of being tired, in pain, or sick. We don't know what kind of exercises I might specifically have to do, how they work, or how much this is all going to cost, because going to specialists can also take a lot of money- more than going to the doctor for a cold," Celine adds, for the kids' understanding. "These doctors pick which parts of your body or mind they want to work with, so they cost even more money. But... even though I'm not sure I should do it while I'm pregnant, because of the electricity, and how that might...do something to the baby, although I don't know what and don't want to think about what right now, I do want to do it sometime. It's a chance. A chance is... something to hope for."
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 26, 2019 12:03:26 GMT -8
"Honey, you're rambling, " theo teases. "Of course we are all in this together! We will do everything we can to support you however you want. Let's get some professional advice and look at options. "
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Post by Joelle on May 26, 2019 12:07:42 GMT -8
"I don't even know where to start looking for professional advice," Celine admits.
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Post by MarieEliz (Mayor) on May 26, 2019 14:54:35 GMT -8
"Calling the hospital and physical therapy is one place. If someone already has these machines, maybe we can go that route. If not, maybe we could help them get one."
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